Sessions: unHappy Days

When he asked me to marry him, I thought my life would change. I thought he would make things better. He promised to be there for me.

I think – I think I ruined it, like I ruin everything else. I wanted so much. Too much, I guess.

Why do you say that?

He’s pulling away. He’s become so distant. I’m worried that he regrets marrying me. I – I’m afraid of being…of being intimate with him. My body is so very different after the baby. What if – what if he finds me ugly now?

He has this version of me in his head and sometimes I see disappointment in his eyes when he looks at me. I’ve tried working out more. I’m so thin, I’ve lost my breast milk. But still, he looks at me and I feel so discouraged.

What am I going to do?

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8 thoughts on “Sessions: unHappy Days

  1. LilyParker says:

    Oh, Lorde. How sad. I’d love to hear Kieran’s side of this. I’ll bet he’s thinking she doesn’t want him anymore. Men don’t understand how deep seated women’s body insecurities can be, and I doubt he thinks that has anything to do with the way she’s acting towards him. Lorde had already pulled away from Kieran during her pregnancy, and physical intimacy was the only form of intimacy they previously shared. So, when that’s taken away, they don’t have much left.

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  2. LegendofSim says:

    I feel like we’re only getting half the story here. Is Al really looking at her like that because of her body? Or is he realizing he doesn’t love her…like soul mate love…?

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